You ex-premies are such liars.  I just found this on the Internet, and was shocked that my Lord has been so lovingly apologetic.  This must show you.  Er, he did do this, right?

LONG BEACH CONFERENCE CENTER, LONG BEACH, CA

Audience:  Wild appluase ....................................

PREM RAWAT:

Thank you, thank you for that warm and enthusiastic welcome. I want to take a moment to thank all of you who have contributed so much to making this event unfold so wonderfully. (read off list of names of event team) It has always been the energies of people like you that these events have ever happened. Thank you Mike Finch for that beautiful music we've all listening to, you are truly talented. That letter you wrote
to me has had an unexpected impact on me.

I want you to know how much I appreciate all of you coming here on such short notice to hear me speak. It means so much to me that you are interested in my philosophy. I am truly touched and thank you from my heart. But this will be the final gathering like this ever.

As you can see, I've done away with the stage and chair. It just isn't right anymore for me to sit so far above you all. It is I who should sit below you. As a dear former premie, Sir David has said,  'I walk amongst saints'. Sir Dave, you are so right and I was so wrong. And you are all truly saints to have put up with my arrogance and tirades for so many long years and all the while never losing the revolutionary zeal you brought to the party.

Over the years, many of you have contributed your time, your love, your careers, your families, your money and your lives so that myself and my family could live a life of luxury. Today that all changes. I have instructed my loyal counsel, Robert Jacobs, to liquidate all of my resources and set up a trust fund to be used however you all see fit. The Malibu house will be turned over to the foundation to be used as a counseling and retreat center for those to who I've caused damage. I have begged
Michael Donner and Michael Dettmers to organize all of the past instructors as counselors for this center if they are interested. The house, by the way is a remarkable achievement by so many dedicated crafts people and I want to personally thank them now (read list of those who built house).

I will be returning to India to live in a small house near the Ganges. There I plan to spend my time following the path my father gave to me. For once, I'm going to practice the knowledge that he showed me. In time I hope to reconcile with my brothers and beg their forgiveness for violating the trust they placed in me. And once I get out of substance abuse recovery, I will put my flight training to good use by volunteering with
Doctors Without Borders in the Sudan, transporting people in need of medical treatment. Perhaps on trips back to the US I'll get to visit Marolyn and my children if they will allow it.  Marolyn is getting a job at Macy's and Daya and Wadi have secured employment at Tower Records, in the New Age department.

In the big-ning, when I first came to London, I was so full of inspiration and possibility. Many of you greeted me there with so much love and dedication and I want you to know I truly appreciated that. I was too young though and not disciplined and frankly, I squandered that love and dedication. And I betrayed the mandate my father gave me to bring peace to the world. I know I promised you the moon and when I realized it was not possible, I could not face telling you the truth, until now. I took the coward's path and found solace in alcohol abuse at first, then material possessions and women.  Today, I stand before you and say I am an alcoholic, a rageaholic and I am addicted to having power over others because I am myself powerless. I am getting treatment for
these faults and I hope you can forgive me. Many never will and I will live with that. But truly, I am sorry.

So now, I will stand here and if you have anything you would like to say to me, please do.

 Thank you.