Joy,
Yes. I'm an oddball that way -- I like to read, write and think.
Personally, I think Kabir was a jerk, but that's just me. Anyone who doesn't have a healthy fear of death is stupid. People would be stepping out of airplanes in mid-flight if they didn't have a healthy fear of death.
You said:
And that's one of the reasons why I still practise and listen to him. I guess I'm just thirsty that way.
From Soul Snatchers:
Addiction is defined as the habitual consumption of a product. In the case of the [cult] initiate, there is a progressive use of rituals and a way of using language that gradually become habit-forming.
That's you, Joy!