I'll give you the benefit of the doubt.

I gave up my fantasy long before most of the ex-premies posting here even got access to the www. But instead of losing my anchor, I discovered that my anchor was not an Ideal, but my experience of Knowledge....The 'experience' of Knowledge is intimately connected with the belief that Rawat is touched by the Divine. Abandon that & K becomes what it always was, a chore, & one incidentally which I'd guess a large percentage of those who go to see the motivational speaker don't bother with too much these days. I haven't meditated since I became an ex, & frankly I feel much better for the lack of it, although it's certainly true that the ability to focus one's concentration can be useful in certain circumstances.

Like driving along the appallingly congested English roads.

.........And as the fantasy eroded, I could not deny the truth that had been shown to me. When I sorted that, I rediscovered Maharaji, but this time the human being.

When I discovered the human being Maharaji, I was horrified & didn't want to have anything more to do with him. He fills me with disgust, & those who continue to follow him, knowing the real man, are beyond my comprehension. Having said that I know one or two, & there's no way we can have a conversation on the subject without it getting very uncomfortable. Still, that's no real problem because, like most premies these days, talking about what 'it' might be all about is totally off the radar.

People like you though are something else.