IMO was to accept and publish the confidential material furnished to him by Tom Gubler.
I suspect that after the success of his magazine article in Australia, he might have become a little over-confident.His whole post is really a lament on this error of judgment.
John's over-elaborate apology to Maharaji and premies for basically recording his own experiences of 30 years involvement with DLM/EV stems really from the immense stress to which he has been subjected post publication of the leaked EV files.
I think John's attitude was formerly always quite fair. He believed in the individual right of people to chose involvement with Maharaji, so long as the facility existed to discuss in detail the realities of premie-world.
John became involved with DLM at a young age (20, I believe), so I think he believed he was more vulnerable to the persuasions of cult membership than someone maybe a bit older.
However, this is miles away from now saying that his present dilemma is due to previous total avoidance of accepting responsibility for his own actions.
His post is the work of a man who has shit kicked out of him to the point he is now prepared to accept anything to try to recover some harmony in his life.
Any premies privately exulting in his apparent total capitulation to the Master should really shiver at the potential retribution waiting to be meted out to anyone who pries too deeply behind the scenes of premie-world.
To John himself, I wish all the best.
I think he needs time to recuperate and get his life back on track. I think he has made an immense contribution to the lives of many people here.
However, I hope that somewhere he still believes in the right of people to question and speak openly concerning the powers and influences shaping and to an extent controlling their lives.
