Let me ask you something, though, doesn't this disregard for the truth about Maharaji leave you at about the moral level of a silkworm?  They just need a tree to hang on, a little water, a little light.  That's their peace.  As for "understanding", don't flatter yourself. 

Well, no - I have some respect for his private life. He never OFFERED to let me in on that - he doesn't know a lot about me either.

To me, understanding is more about a feeling than anything else. Intellecually I reckon I'm pretty average ...