I do relate to that process of arriving at the truth of a matter, I like it too. It has been quite a delight to discover linear thinking again, and be able to reach personal conclusions. I have a saying: what is is. It is a touch humorous to recognise that it has been our sincerity and honesty that has led us out of the cult even though it was those very qualities that made us so easy to co-opt into the cult. "either we all matter or none of us matter."
To whom? I have to ask. The only person I can think of to whom we all would matter or not matter would be, er, 'God'?
Just as a matter of geography, most of us do not matter to most of us. One has to accept that the death of a much loved pet , let alone a much loved family member, would result in more personal grief than the deaths of thousands in another part of the world.
And then of course, not all people are the same. Just type narcissism into google and read the stories of person after person describing the daily cruelties inflicted by these people.
It seems to me that some people are highly empathic, they develop empathy through the use of their imagination, then there is the normal way, through experience, and then there are those who do not, these are people who derive pleasure from causing pain to another.
Personally I came to a point of decision. Does it matter, how everything is, do I matter. The decision I made was yes, that is how it feels for me, it does matter, I matter....to me.
And I do matter of course to a small group of people, I have a certain sphere of influence. In fact there are some little tatsoi seedlings right now that owe their life to my care, who are dependent on me to water them or they'll wilt and then die. Whilst I eat their elder brethren...
