Hey Jim,
Are you striving to become one with the Most High? That is a good thing to be doing this time of year. I know you like Dewar's, that's a bit much for my boiler. I like chilled SoCo with Lime (Southern Comfort) at the moment. And there are so many other ways to get there...in the eyes of our children, our friends, those we have helped and those who have helped us, ourselves in the mirror, then there's Mother Nature, and off we go.
Check out this book: Plants of the Gods by Albert Hoffman and somebody else. (Al discovered LSD) Great book, charts and pictures and very interesting descriptions of all the plants God put here embedded with a buzz to get closer to Him with.
I prefer to call it curiosity about the Most High, not doubt. Same thing as I see it. But different meanings when broken into curiosity and doubt. What about you?