I am now being crunched by the great divide between vaccinated and not vaccinated.  My nature is to go along with the vaccinated, I like to go along with what people do and I like the good levels of social distancing, I did not like the hug I received from an anti vaxxer.  Theoretically it's a nice thing to do, my cat has just died. Practically I felt like I was being assaulted - my feelings are being completely ignored under the practise of zealotry.  

even the simple acts of affection getting trampled underfoot.  I thought I was doing well, better than I expected but today I am missing my cat really badly.

omg I just got another hug.  I have been accepted as an honorary pet by a neighbour.  (double vax)

msg was having an adverse affect on so many people that it became an advantage not to include it.  I know almost nothing about the manufacture of snacks but I suspect they have come up with something very close to the original msg but having less side-effects.  ie I can taste it in the batter on the fish n chips but I am still okay.  except.  except.  the last time I ate it I was okay but got hives, the start of an allergic reaction.

What comes down the road.  That's what I find myself thinking. 

So I finally had my consultation with the specialist.  It was a psychological mugging and inspired the title of this post.

the linch pin of her platform is a scientifically conducted study that concludes early exposure to peanuts makes children more tolerant of them.

and well yes I think we'd all pretty much agree with that.  We adapt to our environment.

But I start to realise she has a big ticket riding on it.  Like it's the way to cure allergies.   

Anybody have a grandparent or parent who was allergic to peanuts?  It was rare in our generation wasn't it.  I don't know anyone, it seems to me that it is a modern problem.  My belief, based on knowing there was a post war boom of peanut growing and they used a lot of ddt in those days, is that it is likely to be due to the way the peanut was grown back then rather than just a wide audience of people lacking historical exposure to peanuts now eating them.

Either way it seems unwise to me to encourage children who are intolerant of peanuts to eat more of a substance that naturally they don't want to eat. 

By this stage I realised she didn't really have much understanding of what it is like to have anaphylaxis and was completely focused on her targeted treatment practise.  I also realised she lacked intelligence and yet still she was a doctor wasn't she, I just found it hard to recognise how rabid she was in her attitude to non-vaccinated people.  it started to sink in as she tells me that I would have to have recorded instances of anaphylactic shock, not just to one but to every covid vaccine there is to be eligible for a vax exemption certificate. 

It made me feel like I've been punched.  My input into the consult had been to go through my history of anaphylaxis. And I had hoped she might help me understand it all better. 

and then she follows up with I am no more likely to have anaphylaxis than anyone else.  On what basis, I manage to ask.  because 95% of people don't get it, she replies.  Just like Dr Deepak said before giving me the contrast dye.  

Haven't I just been telling you I'm one of the 5%, I asked, well yes she replies but it's voluntary and I can help if you need to do it.  I get a pen to write down her advice - take two anti histamines and two Panadol beforehand.

so that was the expert - specialist in both immunology and allergies.

and my question remains.  how is it that a factory can source it's ingredients from different natural substances and by following a chemistry-based recipe produce the same result time after time and yet there is also this element of wildly different results.