Lol, I know, haha. Every day I say welcome back to critical thinking. It is way more fun. All of what you said I can totally relate to... at the moment i find it kind of hilarious.
The mode of consciousness attributed to the Tarot card The Devil is Mirth. Now I know why. Once you see the falsity from a distance, with your heart intact and your ability to appreciate beauty expanding, the fakery looks funny- if not tragic.