I'm curious. Do you feel that the replies to your posts are personal attacks? It's confusing to me that you would apologize if you offended anyone and then say what you said, which really could be viewed as offensive. I know all of this can be a bit overwhelming and I'm sure you didn't mean it that way. Nevertheless, unless I misunderstood your comment, if you feel you're being attacked, I'm wondering why you would feel that way. Requests to make an effort to respond to uncomfortable questions are not attacks.

Speaking for myself, as a premie and when I first stopped practicing Knowledge, I was terrified of confrontation. I'd spent my adult life (ten years in the ashram) relying on Knowledge ( "the sword of His Knowledge and the shield of His Grace" - Prem Rawat's words, not mine) to protect and shield me from uncomfortable situations (actually "the world," but I'll save that for another day ). I still avoid them but not nearly as much as I did when I was dependent on Maharaji for all aspects of my well-being.

I'm also not sure what your motivations are to post here and it's really none of my business. I just hope it's not for the thrill or noble cause of standing alone in defense of Prem Rawat and Knowledge in what you might perceive to be hostile territory - thus viewing the replies through that filter. I've personally made a sincere and respectful effort and I was looking forward to a sincere and constructive response. And that is not an attack.