You were never close to Prem? You never spoke to him? Wow, you must be a very unique pwK.
I recommend you stop going to Prem Rawat's speeches and start attending the World Wrestling Entertainment (WWE) events. You're heart will start pumping and you'll realize you're alive not snoozing in a bottomless pit of boredom.
I think I remember when someone threatened you before. Someone posted threatening you with eternal damnation. I don't know who it was but I don't think they had the power unless it was Guru Maharaj Ji, the Lord of the Universe, because you were making him look bad.