As I read your post, I slowly fell into a slightly tense and somber daze over your circumstances. Then the void filled with admiration for your courage and determination. Suddenly a big smile broke out!

Then I burst into laughter when an image of the good doctor being questioned by a reporter at Amaroo popped into my head: (A Current Affair: Greedy Guru) 

"At this latest gathering, desciples dismiss any suggestion of a cult."

"And you're convinced of that?"

Like the time we were sitting on the floor in a empty ashram living room except for a plush chair and foot pillow reserved for Prem that was backed by flowers and an oversized picture of him in a golden crown:

"At least we're not in a cult," we reassured each other.

Thank you for everything you're doing and especially for the good news about your upcoming book! I don't personally know any former followers who know the truth but won't speak out, even if anonymously. I can imagine how frustrating it must be. Hopefully a few will come around.

Bob