Re: Anthology?
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lexy ®

08/01/2017, 18:13:33
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Is there anything authentic or that wouldn't have been different, had it not been for the cult ? 

I wasn't meaning to be obtuse. That was the third conditional tense ( question form).

So here's a translation : If it hadn't been for the cult indoctrination, which caused me to experience life through a distorted lens ( that was a metaphor...the lens being through the filter of Maharaj Ji's ideology...."the false fog of devotion"  also a metaphor meaning my thoughts/actions were no longer rational or clear  )  If it hadn't been for my encounter and indoctrination by the cult belief system I would have proceeded on my pre-cult, fairly linear and predictable life path. As it was , I was abruptly jerked off course....and started to live a life which didn't follow on from all that had gone before.....It was a massive shock and I lost a chunk of myself that has had to be rebuilt since I rejected that ridiculous ideology. That may not be clear enough....but I work full-time and don't have the time or energy to explain with any more detail . Btw I think what I am expressing is perfectly sane and I am speaking reasonably clearly.

I am editing in a last thing....because of the influence the cult had on the way I saw life, I did many things I wouldn't otherwise have done....and that carried on for over 30 years. So was that brainwashed "me" the real me and are the memories of those years "under the influence of the cult" authentic ...or too mushed up with cult thinking to be so.  







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