Yes, the secrecy and deceit.....that was a problem.  For 6 or 7 years, I really felt that I couldn't speak freely about what I was into.  I invited several people to satsang, but only 2 or 3 went on to receive K.  They never returned to satsang and just quickly faded away.  In retrospect, I feel very relieved about that.

The dislike of adults never happened for me, but the inability to grow certainly did.  Once I was out, I started studying all kind of things.  

I remember one initiator telling a newly divorced mother that she shouldn't be going to college.  She said, "I need some skills so I can support my two kids".  Always admired her for that.

I suffered a fair amount of neglect/physical abuse in my childhood and young adult years.   It created a general mistrust of people which worked in my favor regarding PR and K.  Fortunately, I had a pretty good BS meter that kicked in when the "purging of the past" began.  It reminded me of flushing drugs down the toilet before the cops showed up.  That was the beginning of the end for me.

Quinn