Hi, wow, I read your post a few times. What a horrible time you have had. Being abused and ignored on all sides, while you were reaching out, with love and need, to others, especially to the guru. You have my empathy times 100 and kind thoughts to help you on your path. This Horton guy? Words fail me, and he is still on the go? I would be interested to read Marolyn's letter - where to find it?
Anyone reading your post would surely drop rawatism immediately.
I feel your anger, but please be kind to yourself and grow anew with the rest of us here.
