Thanks for your reassuring post SuzyQ! Although I've never tried to communicate with the dead, there is a lot I'd like to say to my Dad. For one, "thanks for all you did for me and your persistent warnings that I failed to heed!"
Then, I want him to be proud of me. I'm not sure about anyone else, but I always wanted to please my Father. That probably had an effect on my relationship with Rawat where I displaced my feelings for my Father to Rawat instead. I hold Rawat responsible for most of this because displaced affection and love were one of his techniques for emotionally kidnapping us.
