I have looked at some before now and strangely, not long after exing i met a couple on holiday who's job was cult deprogramming. We had a bit to talk about that's for sure.

I'm glad you are thriving and making your own happiness, because as you say, who else is gonna do it? Loved ones are a total blessing in whatever form they arrive. And anyone who empowers us to make our own happiness or remind us that it is in our hands.

The liar maintained that we were doing just that. It took years for me to understand that the happiness I got from the cult was not a happiness that lasted or that i could build upon. It was so fleeting and often a rollercoaster.

It was always being eroded and needed continual topping up from the S, S and M

It's quite different now. The happiness seems to stick. It builds on itself. Of course there are sad days and bad days but I am more secure internally than I have ever been and it is not due to circumstances that's for sure

meanwhile I am trying felting for fun. It's quite therapeutic. Lots of stabbing action