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06/01/2017, 17:04:19
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Dear Inis 'Seems to me that a true teacher would help his students grow, become stronger. Not exploit them further' 
That's the crux of the matter isn't it. We were not empowered to be anything other than a cog in the works for him and that was meant to bring the ultimate fulfilment. Except of course it did not.
As you  say we had to go home to our compromised circumstances and face a disfunction that we had a hard time believing was anything to do with being involved with him.
 I remember when i studied the Tarot, an ongoing study for years, The symbol of the inverted pentagram , for the devil, was a symbol of inverted priorities, that which is meant to be at the top is suddenly at the bottom and the 2 points of the 5 pointed star are suddenly at the top. Unbalanced and in the end untenable. 
There was this stupid word 'effort'. So much pointless effort. None of it yielded anything good, more separation from family and more poverty, more disfunction and more dual minded craziness to keep at bay by meditation. 
If I hadn't meditated in the morning it played on my mind all day, like a small guilt,but more like an addiction, like cigarettes.
 I couldn't allow my full attention to anything because I kept remembering what i really wanted was to have a fag, or to be more precise, to invoke a ritualistic chain around my spirit 






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