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05/22/2017, 17:48:05
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Welcome Danny, so good to have newbies arrive and take part in the conversation.
When I first started to write here I found things came out in no particular order. I would suddenly react to one memory or another, suddenly the veil would be lifted on a scene i had forgotten about. It takes a while to deconstruct everything in the clear light of day and even longer to see just where and how the lazy attitudes of brainwash cult speak have got inside ones head. Weirdly it's the most enlightening process! And empowering.
Now that's something that I might have thought about having K a while back. But more than 30 years of practice has not yielded any self knowledge or empowerment. I have been hiding from myself the whole time i meditated his techniques, and lying to myself, justifying my massive investment of heart and soul and dosh and yes at the expense of my relationships far and wide and very close to home. 
Bastard doesn't give a shit, not even on a gold plated loo. His home life ain't perfect and he'll be darned if anyone close to him is going to show him up by having a happy marriage. That trickled down all the way to most of us. Priorities! he would screech in that dreadful high pitch and that meaningful glare. 
What fear I lived in, in retrospect, all smoke and mirrors, he is the wizard of oz , behind the curtain. He plays us with as few words as possible, just lets the tone deliver what we think we know in our hearts (fear) 
Very strategic PR, however you can only fool us for so long. New life, new possibilities that never existed under his yoke, new horizons and new heart opening experiences that are grounded in TRUTH await you, welcome to your real life. It doesn't get much better than discovering you can be authentically you, with your own feelings and thoughts and observations, not curtailed and circumnavigated back to a resource pool for a pathological ego maniac.
I'm looking forward to hear your memories and stories and all the gory details. We all are nourished by one another's insights as much as our own. No wonder he still implies that the internet is a mere distraction from reality (ahem)






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