Hey Rawatcher,

I liked your bullet points.

Here are a few more related to how I view this Forum:

1.     
GMJ is an asshole, that was able to capitalize
on:

a.     
His lineage, family ties and longstanding religious
tradition

b.     
His sociopathic behavior that served to actually
enhance the opaqueness he needed to preserve his credibility as ‘Perfect
Master’

c.     
An interwoven set of guiding principles that supported
the abandonment of common sense and limitation of personal growth

d.     
The tidal wave of interest in Indiology and
self-realization in the West, particularly in the wake of the early
psychotropic drug culture

e.     
Our youth and naiveté

2.     
For most of us here, our involvement spanned
years and was an integral part of our lives, which finally resulted in:

a.     
Seeing the problems

b.     
Recognizing the need to get clear of him & the
cult

c.     
The need to revisit and process (to the extent
possible) our experiences, ideas and feelings, to heal and grow

d.     
The need to move on, rebuilding atrophied
aspects of our lives in a healthier way

I mean, this involved large chunks of our lives, and my own focus
in what I have posted seems to run towards recognizing the value of and hopefully
how to preserve the more constructive aspects of what occurred.  My perspective is tilted towards someone that
wakes up and starts to smell the coffee, but sits on the fence, perhaps quietly
terrified that the choice may have to be all or nothing with respect to what to
keep or leave behind. 

My own inner process and “spiritual” development was all
tangled up with him and the attendant philosophy.  I felt it was important for me to not dissociate
from a large chapter of my life, and run the risk of negating what truly might be of
value.  So as embarrassing as it was to
see what happened t o me more clearly, I didn’t want to become jaded, and disconnected
from my passion to deepen and explore awareness.

And so of course it is completely accurate to lay blame on
Rawat his role at the very front of the flying wedge of folly (and an essential part
of moving on), I try not to dwell on it. 
I do try to dwell on what I can control though, such as my own
responsibility for my life.  Focusing on
my own responsibility does not mean that I don’t recognize the responsibility held
by others.  And yes, this did happen a long time ago and so the emotions are dulled.

I think that probably everything said now on the Forum has
been said slightly differently by many over a period of years, including 100%
of anything I have written.  But I think
there is a noble purpose in continuing to say it, especially to benefit those that remain
in the sway of Perfect Masterism, start to recognize they are on a treadmill and have the audacity to peek onto this website.

I’d love to see folks like Marolyn finally get the courage
and resolve to come clean and tell their stories here, because it would matter
(especially to her).  As difficult as it
might be for her, I'll bet a huge weight would be lifted.

M