Having to reply on the phone anyway as my son has commandeered the laptop whilst devouring Oreo eggs (yum) 

It's so much about security isn't it - most probably the same reason I posted here..to know I'm not alone in this loop-de-loop. As long as we have connection to other people some how folks seem to do ok. I wish I'd done it a bit earlier actually, but then trying to scrape back some kind of life has been all-consuming & multi tasking has never been a strong point of mine. Handling/dealing with trauma inevitably has to get shelved from time to time. 

Thank you sincerely for your response x