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Re: Babies, bathwater, bleeding hearts. -- Newdawn | Top of thread | Post Reply | Forum |
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Newdawn Don't be afraid of the Dark as there is ALWAYS a New Dawn...and many beautiful things can be found there. Probably your greatest personal truths. Religion is a group experience, and spiritual awareness is a very personal one, and most spiritual journeys are downright lonely. Unless of course you understand that the divine is within, not without. My experience is vastly different from yours, and I hesitated for days in posting to you, knowing full well that everyone else here would have way better things to say, but I couldn't stop thinking about you. Maybe because we're the same age, or maybe because I actually do know a thing or two about being spiritually lost. And how very very ok that is. Understanding astrology has helped me, especially North Node stuff. North Node is our spiritual guide and it really comes into play around mid life...check it out, you might find great comfort there. Given your age, I'd guess that it's knocking at your door for attention. Without getting too weird, Pluto is doing stuff right now too that will compel all of us to look closer at our Shadow sides...to deal with stuff long pressed down, and it could take it upon itself to completely deconstruct our lives, rid us of anything that doesn't serve us anymore, and rebuild from whatever ashes are left. You sound like you're feeling the effects of that, and it will pass. I wrote this lil poem to comfort myself one day. Without knowing my whole story some of it won't make sense but you'll get the gist, and maybe a little comfort too. I never heard of autocorrect driving anyone to near suicide, but I do know of several beaten down brainwashed premies who were driven to it...so I'm glad you're here to feel your growing pains, and I'm glad you're coming to this site for tips on dealing with them. Be well, Genny Losing My Religion Amazing Grace How sweet the sound That saved a wretch like me I once was lost But now am found Was blind, but now I SEE Inheritance Came way too soon Was much too young to read Your signs were there All along The Gift was still a seed Who knows how far Things could have gone If left Whole, just to Be We may have saved The world, but then It broke when he left me To see his death The day before Was crazy pain to bear I didn't tell A single soul Went black and couldn't share You tried to teach Me how it feels But I just couldn't know The day I cried And sparked the Sight Felt nothing like Your Glow I thought I'd try Another way No God, No Gifts to use You take so much From little girls And You, I tried to lose I turned my back On Your sweet Gifts Just please leave me alone You never left Just gave me time To find You on my own Amazing Grace How sweet the Sound That saved a wreck like me You came in Dreams Could not deny "Accept your Legacy" I met a Witch Along my way Who showed me so much more Religion's not The only Way Your path, you must explore You know that Christ Is not for you And Gurus will deceive Our Mother Earth Retains the Keys And Moon has tales to weave They dance around The Sun for us And show us who we are And how to Love The other ones Who share our lonely Star With that new sight I heard much more And couldn't not Believe The city became Way too loud I knew had to leave The Mountains called And off I went To find some peace from Noise You got louder Instead of calm And gave me some new Toys Can do it all But nothing well "So what's your specialty?" Just Listen well Sit back and Feel And let the Gift use me Amazing Grace How sweet Your Sounds Saving a mess like me I turned You down But had no choice You came and set me Free The Roads that lead To You are vast No exclusivity You dwell within Each One of us And spark Kundalini We look outside Ourselves sometimes And wonder where You are There's so much pain You must be gone Just look at all the scars Life should be hard It's why we're here To balance the Beyond But when I need To soothe myself I dip in Your Sweet Pond The pain is not Derived from You It's our best way to heal The Karmic holes We made one time You know they're ours to feel The Love is real The pain's real too Must be a cosmic joke It's up to Us Not up to You To fix the things We Broke But You are there To show us how To mend the breaks and holes You shed the Light On Miracles And soothe our gentle Souls |
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