When asked how one could get peace, he answered that it was within everyone, although it needed nurturing, giving the example of an abandoned field.  

“If it is left abandoned, with no thought given, and no effort made, weeds will grow. But if a little effort is made, then the good stuff will grow,” he said.

for me that was the whole point - i thought i was making a "little effort" for 30 years - but i somehow always thought i was never experiencing enough - never good enough - i was always getting mixed messages - it felt like i was just going in circles - 

It wasnt just enough to experience peace within - but it became about worshiping a person - i cant believe i was once like this